Life cannot be about nothing. It can be against nothing but it has to have something. It must. In learning to live from nothing, I keep finding myself in nothing and I keep thinking that I need to think nothing, feel nothing, plan and be nothing... which cannot be.
I think it is OK to have something. Everything seems pointless for me to have. Except for the richness of the depth of everything, there is only one thing that I feel very comfortable being the content of my life. And that's my time in Eclipse.
I'm saying this as an affirmation and a reminder that it is OK. Whatever I'm afraid of, that's just content. I can live past that into this realization.